Inquiring minds really don't want to know.

I know you have had this person in your life. The guy/gal that just has to tell you their life story. Some of it much too personal for public conversations and yet they are compelled to tell you, and everyone else, all.

Case in point; the person who shuttles me back and forth to the airport. Nice person, very personable, good looking and successful to hear him tell it. Here is what I know. He is married has one child from a prior marriage. He does not think well of the ex, found this out the first time he took me to the airport. He has a very nice house, one he never dreamed he would have, but is having problems with the builder completing the contract, a rental and two cars, one new. He has retirement funds that are doing very well and almost as good as his wife's 401K. He has investments that are doing fairly well. He has extra money he is investing in collectables, sports cards and comics. He fiercely defends his church and is very active in his church.

This is a person who would never be picked to work for the CIA, he can't keep a secret. I have often wondered if his wife would be happy knowing he tells his personal business to strangers.

Now I have a few questions:
What compels a person to tell total strangers very personal information? Are they that trusting or just can't help it? Are they looking for a friend or think so well of the human race that everyone can be trusted?

Teri

I have a friend, Teri, that finds such joy in life. She called today just to tell me about an email she received from a person she met in Spain. I could hear the joy in her voice from hearing from her friend and then being able to share it with someone else. I can only hope I will find that knid of joy.

Curtis

I was called this morning and told a Curtis Cloud died. For those who did not have the privilege of knowing Curtis, he was very kind and could be the most annoying person in the world. Because he was so nice it was hard to stay annoyed with him. It was such a shock when I found out. I could not talk or think.

I talked to a few people at work and through mail. It was very somber at work. No one had a lot to say. The customer service manager started a blog I have looked at it several time today. I wanted to see what was posted. The posting were very touching and I hope they will be a comfort for Karen (Curtis’s wife) and his family.

Curtis be with God.

Computers and other things that bug me.

I work in the software industery. Hard to beleave when I am very much as odds with at least on of the computer in my home daily. I have 4 laptops, two for work and two are mine. All get turned on at least once a day. I test and train software and you would think this would make operating computers easier, wrong. I have just spent severial weeks trying to reset a password and trying to get back into a site I visit often. There is another site I visit often that has the same problem. Well they have a phone number you can call but guess what, no one answers the phone. How is it multi billion dollar companies cannot maintain their websits and make them work. Yes I know that is the 64 billion dollar question.

Another thing that bugs me. I purchased an extended warrenty for my Ipod with the idea it would at some point in the future break. Low and behold it did . I have spent 4 months trying to get it fixed or replaced. Tell me what did I really pay for? A change to stay pissed off for four month and at the low price of $59. Most day I can do it for free.

Note: as of 10/15 I still do not have a IPod and it looks like I will never have one again.

Last Cause

-I was reading a book and one of the main characters was St Jude. The saint of lost causes. That is a saint I can get behind. We all gave a lost cause. Mine is I want to be an artist. Not the kind that paints or plays in clay. I like to bake, do handy crafts and every thing I make is pretty.

-The blanket I crochet are beautiful and are orginal patterens. It is becoming a lost art. Many baby blankets I have given out to friends would not have had them because no one in the family crocheted, how sad. I have tried selling them but again no one is interested or will pay what they are worth. I have seen a person layout $1500 for a machine made quilt but would not look at a crocheted afgan that was hand made and better quility. (Yes , this is a soap box).

-A t some point I plan to have a studio in my house in Texas but for now it is only a lost cause, St Jude , help.

houses, conference and friends, new and old

I have been trying to find a house in UT the last few months. The problem is not a lack of housing but rather a lack of working real estate agents. I have called many over the past year and have found they have an inability to return calls and better yet answer the phone. Point of fact; I called about a hotel for sale in Springville UT and got no answer and called two different numbers, no answer. I went to the hotel to see if it was open and found the owner in the lobby. Hotel was pretty but for me over priced and I could never come up with the money or have the time to run it.

I have found that housing here is leaving the middle income people on the street. I have a 2 bedroom town house, nice enought but the same house is renting from $200 to $400 dollars more than what I am paying. I have found the nicer housing is subidised or better yet student housing. Leaving those that are productive and working with no place to live. I would rather buy but the housing is over priced and and forclosers are high here but again the real estate agents do not want to deal with them.

The conference is going well so far. Katie and I are both stressed out beyound words. A car load of trainers were an hour late for class, no surprise there, for the afternoon session. I locked the door when class started. I wanted them to make an issue about getting in the room. There is a lesson there bet they did not learn it. It will be on my hit list a couple times before all is said and done.

I have to got to a dinner party tomorrow night. Tonight I have to bake a cake for the party. I am planning on going over for a short time and leaving I still have two classes to get ready for and no time to do the work.

Work, Visit, looking around

Today is a holiday, I am sure you new that because you are out having a good time not at work. Yes, I am whining. It is beautiful day and I am at work doing proposals for sales. Ok, I really don't mind that much but it does give me an idea of what I will be doing for the next 6 weeks.

The conference is ready as it will be and I have three classes still to outline. Shouldn't take long There is only one class I really need to take a look at. and it is not til friday.

My exhusband's second exwife visted this weekend. She was here to see our son and his wife. We had dinner and talked until I gave up and went home. It did make me sad that we did not get to know each other while Bill was growing up. There was just to much bad stuff in the way. She now lives in the Houston area and is doing well. I am happy to know friends can happed even after so much bitterness. We don't discuss exhusband or the problems we had with him, better to forgive and forget. I have often wondered if she resented my not talking to her over the years when I was mad at Ex. Did she realize I was really trying to keep her out of the middle and not take the anger out on her. She did nothing wrong and I refused to make her a whipping post for my bad marriage. Needless to say Ex is married again but I don't see us getting to know her, no reason to other than to tick off Ex, well that might be fun. Ex-wives club, wonder if he will try for an even dozen???.

Blogs may work after all

I created a blog a few days a go and I was not able to access it after the first day. I did write every thing down but must have gotten something wrong, ya think... Hopefully I am in the right track now.
good night Sweet dreams.

Journals

I have never blogged or journaled. Not so much as taken a moment to write comments on blogs belonging to friends. This week I have started a personal journal and started this blog. The reason for the sudden change was because of a friend.

This friend start a pilgrimage today. She started her journey three years a go. Watching her leave made me think it was time for me to start my own journey. It seems so much less than hers but for me just as importent. Making a change no matter how small can be very hard. Trusting the world with my thoughts, hurts, happiness takes a lot when trusting is not easy.

The purpose of this blog is to take a look and see what I find. If it is good polish it and make it shine, if it is not so good, find a way to fix it or take it out. This sounds so shallow. It just may be but everyone need to look under the hood some time. And so, this is my 'Moment in Time."